transcript 3: Insecure

 

EXT. STATION, DAY ALWAYS DAY

LEADS VO

The Suits.

Pratcher. Dr. Cassie. 

To me the Flower Company only has one voice.

LEADS VO

Gina. 

INT. STATION, DAY ALWAYS DAY 

LEADS 

Come on... 

LEADS VO

How long had I been there? 

Less than a week? 

Slamming down a binder, victory.

LEADS 

I think... this is it.

LEADS VO

Time doesn't move the same way it used to. 

The first floor was always dark, the third floor always day. 

But it can't have been more than five or six twenty four hour cycles.

Leads typing.

LEADS 

YES! YES FINALLY! 

LEADS 

Oh I can't believe that worked. 

LEADS VO

Five days and I was already desperate for outside contact.

 

So much so that I tore apart my considerable stock of binders looking for internet access.

LEADS 

Dear Diary, let the records show that I, Matthew Leads, have finally located the wifi password. 

LEADS 

Let the record also show that just about everything is blocked. My old man would have killed for a child blocker like this for me. 

LEADS 

My email is working though this is almost dial up slow. 

LEADS 

Who is?

LEADS 

Gina. 

LEADS 

Do I know a Gina?

LEADS 

"Matthew Leads, progress report required. -Gina

LEADS 

"Matthew Leads, please respond." -Gina

LEAD 

"Matthew Leads, failure to respond" -Gina

LEADS 

There are six of these. 

LEADS 

I think I made her mad.

LEADS 

Response: Dear Gina, it's nice to hear from you... That's stupid.

LEADS 

Gina, I'm fine I'm safe, I... She could probably care less.

LEADS 

Response: Gina. Comma.

LEADS 

The computers in the lab are all password protected. I just found the WiFi password and am sending this from my personal laptop. 

LEADS 

I am downloading my assignments now. There are no issues with the Station. Please send the password to the computer lab."

LEADS

Give that a few minutes to send. 

LEADS 

I should really clean up in here. 

INT. FIRST FLOOR HALLWAY, DAY ALWAYS DAY

LEADS 

It's so cold.

LEADS 

It's not like I was expecting Antarctica to be warm but you'd think they'd have better heating here. I was sweating in some of those McMurdo rooms.

LEADS 

Gina told me I should be checking the front door daily to break up any ice so I don't get stuck in here. I haven't been that way since I first arrived. 

LEADS 

I wonder who she is. They've told me so little about this place or what to expect. 

Those emails were a nice surprise though.

 It helps knowing somebody is looking out for me.

LEADS 

Oh no...

LEADS 

My boots!

LEADS 

There's snow everywhere. (Frustrated) The entrance should have a better seal than this.

LEADS 

Nothing I can do, winds are too strong.

LEADS 

My boots... Couldn't hurt to throw them in the oven for a bit. I think.

INT. COMPUTER LAB, DAY ALWAYS DAY

LEADS 

Refresh...

LEADS 

No response. 

LEADS 

She might have missed it. I should send another one. Just to make sure.

INT. ELECTRIC PANEL, DAY ALWAYS DAY

LEADS 

Yellow switch...

LEADS 

Good. 

LEADS 

I wonder where she is. If she was at McMurdo Beanie and Glasses might know about her.

LEADS 

Could be in the States. 

LEADS 

Or she could be with the scientists somewhere out there. That could be why she hasn't responded. She has to know a lot about the Station with that giant grocery list of chores she sent me.

LEADS 

Red switch...

LEADS 

Not red switch!

LEADS 

At least it's a good distraction. Keep my mind off of things.

LEADS VO

You know, I've never really missed people before.

I prefer my own company. 

I romanticized it, I think. 

Being alone, building a cabin up in the mountains. 

People in town would tell stories about how they saw me chopping down a tree or going on a run during rainstorms. 

LEADS VO

Did I really want to be alone? 

Or was I looking for that air of mystery?

LEADS VO

Was anybody thinking about me? 

Is anybody thinking about me? 

It sounds petty. 

But who am I trying to impress?

LEADS 

Last one. (Switch flick) 

LEADS 

-Pause-

LEADS 

I bet she's responded by now. 

INT. COMPUTER LAB, DAY ALWAYS DAY

LEADS 

Nothing. 

LEADS 

Hmm...

LEADS VO

I always avoided texting. 

Not because I had a problem with the technology. 

LEADS VO

It was the crippling insecurity of hitting send. 

Of sticking your neck out in the hopes that someone will respond to you. 

LEADS VO

And what if they don't? 

 

What if you reach out to somebody you meet and they don't reply?

 

I've lost contact to with more than one person because I was too stubborn to send a second message.

LEADS VO

Better to tell people that you're not into texting. 

Call me if you want to talk, I don't really text. 

 

Keeps you from giving your power away. 

LEADS 

Shouldn't have sent that second email... 

INT. KITCHEN, DAY ALWAYS DAY

LEADS 

I think I've read this page four times now. 

LEADS 

It's not a bad book. "My Struggle". Not the Hitler one. This ones written by this guy Knausgaard. 

LEADS 

It's like his life story. Including all of the bad stuff we usually like to leave out of our narratives. Thought I would get a good chunk of it done today but I just cannot focus.

LEADS 

I was reading upstairs but I kept getting distracted by my laptop.

LEADS 

Now I'm in the kitchen but these sentences are getting lost somewhere between my ear and my brain. 

LEADS 

I've already done a lot of what Gina initially wanted but I need clarification on some of these. And sending a fifth email without response feels desperate. 

LEADS 

I really hate this waiting thing. 

INT. ELECTRIC ROOM, DAY ALWAYS DAY

GINA 

"Matthew Leads, Good to finally hear from you.

LEADS 

It's her. 

GINA 

"First of all, please avoid using your personal laptop at the Station. Bandwidth is limited and must be saved for the researchers.

GINA 

The password for each computer is "Walker" with a capital "W" followed by the number stickied to the monitor. 

GINA 

Second of all, the Station is a delicate ecosystem and it is imperative that you complete your tasks on time to avoid upsetting its balance. Please adhere to the Stations clock and send progress reports at the indicated times. 

GINA 

Third, there are no egg shipments. 

The powdered eggs supplied in the kitchen have been proven to be nutritious and sufficient for your work needs. 

 

Fresh fruit and vegetables may come with the Research Staff. 

Thank you. If you cannot find answers to future questions in the binders please direct them here. -Gina 

LEADS 

Alright, response!

LEADS 

Dear Gina, thank you for the response! I will be sure to do that. Fresh fruit and vegetables sound great! Will you be with the research staff? How long have you been with the company? IF you have any questions for me I will happily answer them.

LEADS 

Send.

LEADS 

She said it was good to hear from me. That's something. 

GINA 

Matthew Leads. 

GINA 

I have no questions at this time. Please use the Stations computers and not your own personal laptop. Once again the passwords will be the word "Walker" with a capitol W, followed by the number posted on the computer you are using. - Gina

LEADS 

Whoops. Guess I should get back to work. 

INT. COMPUTER LAB, DAY AWLAYS DAY

LEADS VO

Running the Station was a two person job. 

I was behind. 

All I wanted to do was get a conversation going. 

I knew she was there, the response time between the first and second email can't have been more than ten minutes. 

But she wasn't responding to my thinly veiled requests for personal details. 

LEADS VO 

I did have legitimate questions. 

 

Irregularities in the Station.

LEADS 

Dear Gina, 

LEADS 

I finally logged in to the computers in the Lab like you told me. 

LEADS 

They're all showing different times. And some of them go past 24:00 hours. Terminal 2 says it's currently 26:00 hours. Is there a reason for this? I also couldn't find a of calendar on any of them.

GINA 

"Matthew Leads, the computers have been powered down all Winter which accounts for the time inconsistency.

And yes, the Station goes off of a 27 hour schedule and ignores conventional dates. The person who worked in the Station previous had a non-24 hour sleep disorder. Everything has been tailored specially for the needs of the researchers. Please reference the time on Terminal 3 for all future assignments. 

LEADS 

Dear Gina, 

LEADS 

I found hair in the shower, long dark hair. I don't remember it being there before. Is it possible that any of the researchers have stopped in early?

GINA 

Matthew Leads, It is easy to overlook small details while getting familiar with a new environment. You are the only person in the Station and the hair was likely left over from an old staff member. You will know when the Research team arrives. -Gina

LEADS VO

But looking back some of these did more damage than good.

GINA 

"Matthew Leads, no I do not have a weather forecast, you are not required to go out except for to clear snow and ice build up from the first floor entrance and the third floor balcony. Please refrain from doing either of these during strong winds or storms." -Gina

GINA 

"Matthew Leads, if you need recipes please see the Blue Binder in the cafeteria kitchen. Eat dry cereal if you do not wish to cook. -Gina

GINA 

"Matthew Leads, do not put your boots or any other possessions near  or around the oven. The ice will melt naturally, in the future keep your equipment in the first floor closet marked on your map. -Gina 

LEADS VO 

With every response I became more desperate. 

It was pathetic. 

I feel shame listening to this, shame in letting vulnerability and need manifest as a weakness. 

LEADS 

She hasn't responded in two hours. I think I overdid it. 

LEADS 

Dear Gina what do you recommend doing for fun? What's wrong with me. Or this.

LEADS 

Dear Gina, if you let me know what room you'll be staying in I can make sure to clean it before you arrive?

LEADS 

Did I even think before sending these? That sounds so creepy. 

LEADS 

I'll just send one more.

LEADS 

Dear Gina.               

                    LEADS 

I apologize for the last few emails, please ignore them. I think the elevation is still getting to me, I'm not thinking straight. 

LEADS 

I am working through your second list and will let you know when it's done. 

LEADS 

Thank you for your patience, Leads. 

LEADS 

Whoa. 

LEADS 

The weather's finally cleared up.

LEADS 

It's beautiful. 

LEADS 

I've never seen the sky so big. 

LEADS 

There's stone and ice all the way to the horizon. No life, no color. No death.  

LEADS 

Just me. Just me and this Station. 

LEADS 

I've never seen anything like this. Even down at McMurdo. It's like being on another planet. 

LEADS 

I'm alone down here.

LEADS 

I've gotten off track. This is why I came down here. To be alone. To figure myself out. 

LEADS 

When I took this job I vowed to use it as a clean slate. No phone. No internet. No TV.

LEADS 

Just me, the job and a journal. 

LEADS 

The laptop was just for emergencies and even there I deleted all of my music, my movies and my pictures. But I spent half of today on it and haven't even touched my journal. 

LEADS 

Gina told me to go off of Station time on Terminal 3. According to my laptop it's currently 5:31pm Los Angeles time on a Thursday... But I don't know what the time difference is from here to there. And even if I did I couldn't account for the extra three hours added to every day here.

LEADS 

I have no idea what time it actually is where I'm currently standing. And that's fine.

LEADS 

I'm going to lock my laptop in one of the unused dorms. 

LEADS 

From now on I'm eating when I'm hungry, sleeping when I'm tired and I'll send Gina reports based on Terminal 3 time. All of the other computers are getting shut off.

LEADS 

No more distractions. 

LEADS VO

A clean slate.